Yesterday was my last official day of school. (I have to go back for ISP presentations later in the month, even though the semester is over.) It felt somewhat anti-climactic — it was as though one day I had two weeks left and then somehow all of a sudden it was the last day of school. The whole year went by so quickly, it seems now. It feels like a few days ago that I was pining over my dream of going to recording school and thinking I’d never be able to afford it. It feels like just yesterday that I was so stressed out and afraid about school starting the next day that I worked myself into a tizzy that, coupled with a lack of food and water in the heat, resulted in me passing out at the ferry docks and whacking my head on the ground.
Now it’s on to a full-time job hunt. Job hunting is my least favourite thing ever. It’s exciting at first, thinking about all of the possibilities and checking out what’s out there. It becomes less exciting as it rolls on. It’s the ultimate self-esteem killer – you send out resumes to for jobs you think you’re 100% absolutely made for and end up waiting in vain for even an interview. It’s even worse when you’re trying to get into an industry that has approximately 0 jobs available. What I’m most terrified of is getting away from what I really want to do, out of pure necessity, and then finding a few years from now that I’m nowhere near where I want to be.
I won’t dwell on the negative though. Instead I’m going to focus on how great it will be to finally have money coming in, instead of just going out. I can finally start to chip away at my crushing student loan debt. 6 years after starting university, I’m ready to not be a student ever again. The time has come to leave the teat, as some people I know might say (loudly, in the presence of those who need to do it.)
And while I’m glad to be done school, it’s also kind of sad. (But not bad or mad.) I think I will mope around for a few days and get on with life. And maybe finally have time to finish some of my own songs and start a band (which I’ve only been meaning to do for about 10 years.) Anyone looking to have a band, please apply within. And by apply, I mean send me an email.
